Here I go. I opened up the door that I once closed. I closed that door for several reasons. But here I go!
I opened it and peeked through. Wondering if the same person I completely fell in love with was standing behind the door. Come to my surprise it was someone who resemble everything I use to want. So when I heard his voice it sent chills down my spine. Could it really be him? I constantly wondered. Never even consider if it was just the devil in disguised. Blindfolded and dumbfounded there I stood. I let your voice lead me. I seemed to have left my brain at the door. Silly me. I’m honestly so ashamed. I could remember everything little thing that emotionally crushed me, but after it was all to late.
Now you’re here. As we sit face to face. Do I begin the conversation of where have you been?! Or no, whose the girl who has your heart now? No, No I don’t want to know, as I think to myself. You’re here, please just tell me all the things that I want to hear. Just tell me you miss me and you made a mistake. That you’re willing to fix it and make things right. Boost my pride and increase my confidence. Just for once make me feel good. Make me feel like I am one in a million. Remember I never had that feeling?
What’s this you say? Did you hear my thoughts? Why are you coming this close to me? Please don’t touch me. Please don’t kiss me. I can’t believe I have no control over my body. My mouth is saying no you don’t deserve me. But I’m breaking out in sweats. I’m trying to fight it, but I just can’t fight hard enough. Oh no you just kissed me. You have no idea how much I miss sucking on your bottom lip. Just smelling your scent is so intoxicating. You’re on top of me… I’m uncontrollably wet. I just had an orgasm just from your presence. So what’s next? My voice that was first stern has now turned seductive. I’m sucking and biting your lip, oh how much I missed this. You lift me on your lap and tell me you’re sorry. I’ve been waiting for two years for you say that. Literally music to my ears. I said it back with tears falling this time. I knew I shut down and left you hanging. I’m sorry for never voicing my opinion. Wait, what are you sorry for? Oh man, was it something to say to get me to melt. I’m sitting here hugging you cause of how much I love you. I don’t want to let you go. Yet you are kissing me. Are you feeling the way I feel?
Sigh, now you are laying me back down. Telling me you have other places to kiss. Why am I not saying no any more. I know you only got one thing on your mind. I’m no fool. But instead I’m just laying there. Watching you remove my pants and unbutton my blouse. Feeling your hands roam across my now naked body. Mentally cussing myself, but physically enjoying your touch. Completing succumbing into temptation as I received most intimate kiss… between my thighs. Hearing my moans get louder and louder as you lick in all the right places. We move from the bed to the floor. Kissing, grabbing while you talk your shit. I’m sashaying my hips to the speed of your grind. Hoping you love every minute of this moment we are sharing.
I’m all in now… I’m all in now thinking to myself. The way you handle my body is just so convincing. You took your time and made sure I enjoyed every single bit of it. I mean you really wouldn’t make slow love to someone you don’t care about, right? It’s time that I leave. I’m feeling so good about this moment. Everything I wanted is back, I think.
To be continue…